I slash the knife across my wrists,
For some reason I feel a strange bliss.
I see the blood fall down,
As it begins to surround,
My body and spills on the floor below,
I pressure my arms to strengthen the flow.
Then i slash across my breasts,
All I want to feel is the cold hand of death,
To touch my shoulder,
I want to leave this world without getting older.
I want to get rid of this despair and pain,
My blood drenches me like the rain.
We have had good times and bad,
Through happy times as well as sad.
We have been together through thick and thin,
And if given a choice I would do it all over again.
Everyone simply wants to know how,
We have remained friends even now.
Things in my life are hard and I wonder why,
You are there to listen to me when I cry.
To me that is a friend that is true,
To me that friend is you.
We have fought in times before,
But somehow I always find you walking through my door.
Sometimes I feel like no body cares,
But you are my best friend that is always there.
I will never let our friendship die,
I will treasure it until the day I die.
I don't know why I even try.
All I want to do is die.
Someone take me out of here.
I want to die and be away from all this fear.
Someone kill me now.
I just don't know how.
I keep going on like this,
All this depression and sadness.
Take me into the dark,
Rip out my bleeding dark heart.
My mind races as I think,
and my heart starts to sink.
I feel so lost and alone,
no place to ever call home,
left forever just to roam.
I feel like I am losing my soul,
Like I will no longer be whole.
All I want to do is cry,
Even if it causes me to die.
I am falling down,
My life has come crashing all around,
There is anger and hate,
And I can't fight fate.
I want to hide,
I want to cry,
I want to disappear,
I hate being here.
I feel I will never be happy at all,
Although it is no one's fault.
I sit alone in the night,
Wondering why it seems nothing in my life will go right,
I have anger and all i see is red,
I feel like i would be better off dead.
Then comes my miracle, someone who knows me inside my head,
He encourages me to look past all that i dread,
To see a bright new day,
Suddenly i start feeling a different way.
He treats me as one would a wife,
Even though i am not, he still wants me in his life.
I do not know what to do,
I know it isnt right to somebut believe that i truly do love you.
I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart,
You have kept me from falling apart,
I love you with all my heart.
Believe
Sitting outside on a cold winter night,
Her mind starts to fill with dread and fright.
She is scared to cry for help,
She is scared to scream and yell.
It keeps replaying in her head,
Again that feeling of dread.
"Please I didn't do anything wrong",
He drowns out her cries by turning up a song.
The bruises are unseen and out of sight,
The tears during the day, the pain comes at night.
Her mind comes back to the here and now,
And she actually sits and wonders how,
Will she ever be able,
be on her own and stable?
Then someone flashes in front of her eyes,
The image of someone to make her touch the skies.
But for now the bruises
You have been gone for so long,
But it still feels so wrong,
To think that you are not here,
To think that I am still shedding tears.
Sometimes I think out loud,
Can you see me do I make you proud?
I finished high school like I said I would,
When I didn't believe in myself you said I should.
You were always there,
You always showed how much you cared.
You helped find the light,
When I was lost in the dark of night.
I know that you are happy up there,
But I also know and feel that you still care.
I miss you each and every day,
Thank you for helping me along the way.
She couldn't shake her feeling of fright,
That came to visit her each night.
She felt helpless and scared,
She felt like no one cared.
"What do I have to live for?", she thought,
Listening to her family as they fought.
She thought nobody would care,
If they came back and she wasn't there.
She thought of everyone she knew,
And wondered what would they do,
If she wasn't around to be used,
If she wasn't around to be abused.
Then she thought of one who cared,
The one who was always there,
He has shown me love,
He truly is a gift from above.
I know if I disappeared,
He would shed his tears.
She thought,
"I do have something to l
I can't continue to hide
This passion I feel inside,
I know you feel it too, I see it in your eyes.
The way you hold me when we embrace,
Like you will never let go,
The way that you won't hestitate to show,
That I mean something to you.
I dont know where I would be without you.
You always show that you care,
And you prove to me,
That more than anybody you will be there.
How are these feelings something I can hide,
Something to be held up inside.
I want you more than you know,
So that I can show,
You how much I yearn,
For a fiery passion to burn,
Between us through heart, mind, body, and soul,
Just one night with you and I t
It has been a year since you have been gone,
For me that is a year too long.
I miss your smile,
And I miss the way you'd come around,
after you hadn't seen me for a while.
I miss the way you were such a good friend,
And I hate the fact that your life came to an end.
It is not fair,
That we cannot be there,
Where you are,
Looking down beyond the stars.
In our hearts is where you have been kept,
But we still haven't stopped missing you yet.
Rest in peace and just know,
That you are still loved missed,
and we will never let you go.
There is a fierce look in his eyes,
As he begins to realize,
Which he will choose,
And who will he lose.
He had been leading her on,
Making her think that one day the other would be gone.
Both want to stay,
But one must go away.
She thinks "If he hesitates to choose me,
Does that mean that I am not worthy,
Of the love that he has to give?"
The other knowing that she could not live,
Without his love and advice,
To get her through the days and nights.
He turns to the first and gives her a soft kiss,
And calmly tells her that the other is the one who gives him total bliss.
She feels hurt and lost, but she is brave and will not
I never thought my whole world,
Could be summed up to blue eyes,
and blonde curls.
With such small little hands and feet,
And such perfect, white little teeth.
Someone so small,
With such a beautiful smile
I can't believe I made this wonderful child.
A little person
Who I can't believe is so smart,
A little person who I loved from the start.
Whenever I am upset or feeling down,
She puts a smile on my face,
as she dances around.
I have all I need in this world,
Katryna, my beautiful, brilliant, little girl.
She couldn't shake her feeling of fright,
That came to visit her each night.
She felt helpless and scared,
She felt like no one cared.
"What do I have to live for?", she thought,
Listening to her family as they fought.
She thought nobody would care,
If they came back and she wasn't there.
She thought of everyone she knew,
And wondered what would they do,
If she wasn't around to be used,
If she wasn't around to be abused.
Then she thought of one who cared,
The one who was always there,
He has shown me love,
He truly is a gift from above.
I know if I disappeared,
He would shed his tears.
She thought,
"I do have something to l
You have been gone for so long,
But it still feels so wrong,
To think that you are not here,
To think that I am still shedding tears.
Sometimes I think out loud,
Can you see me do I make you proud?
I finished high school like I said I would,
When I didn't believe in myself you said I should.
You were always there,
You always showed how much you cared.
You helped find the light,
When I was lost in the dark of night.
I know that you are happy up there,
But I also know and feel that you still care.
I miss you each and every day,
Thank you for helping me along the way.
Sitting outside on a cold winter night,
Her mind starts to fill with dread and fright.
She is scared to cry for help,
She is scared to scream and yell.
It keeps replaying in her head,
Again that feeling of dread.
"Please I didn't do anything wrong",
He drowns out her cries by turning up a song.
The bruises are unseen and out of sight,
The tears during the day, the pain comes at night.
Her mind comes back to the here and now,
And she actually sits and wonders how,
Will she ever be able,
be on her own and stable?
Then someone flashes in front of her eyes,
The image of someone to make her touch the skies.
But for now the bruises
I sit alone in the night,
Wondering why it seems nothing in my life will go right,
I have anger and all i see is red,
I feel like i would be better off dead.
Then comes my miracle, someone who knows me inside my head,
He encourages me to look past all that i dread,
To see a bright new day,
Suddenly i start feeling a different way.
He treats me as one would a wife,
Even though i am not, he still wants me in his life.
I do not know what to do,
I know it isnt right to somebut believe that i truly do love you.
I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart,
You have kept me from falling apart,
I love you with all my heart.
Believe
I am falling down,
My life has come crashing all around,
There is anger and hate,
And I can't fight fate.
I want to hide,
I want to cry,
I want to disappear,
I hate being here.
I feel I will never be happy at all,
Although it is no one's fault.
My mind races as I think,
and my heart starts to sink.
I feel so lost and alone,
no place to ever call home,
left forever just to roam.
I feel like I am losing my soul,
Like I will no longer be whole.
All I want to do is cry,
Even if it causes me to die.
There is a fierce look in his eyes,
As he begins to realize,
Which he will choose,
And who will he lose.
He had been leading her on,
Making her think that one day the other would be gone.
Both want to stay,
But one must go away.
She thinks "If he hesitates to choose me,
Does that mean that I am not worthy,
Of the love that he has to give?"
The other knowing that she could not live,
Without his love and advice,
To get her through the days and nights.
He turns to the first and gives her a soft kiss,
And calmly tells her that the other is the one who gives him total bliss.
She feels hurt and lost, but she is brave and will not
not that this has anything to do with anything but i wish i was a person whose biggest problem in life was not being able to get into a hotel room, they flip out when you tell them like the world will end. god i hate my job.
I am finally starting to understand how to work things on this site. I hope i can find more people to talk to i have made two great friends already. i can be emailed at samanthalynnkessler@yahoo.com if anyone would like to ask me anymore questions. :)